[ That is, by all accounts, an excellent question. James can't answer it without some hesitation, so he let's his thumb brush over Keith's hand as he thinks.
Being without rules, turning everything upside down... as much as those things drive James crazy, they've always been a driving factor in his fascination with Keith. Keith is everything he isn't and James is pulled to him near magnetically. In the end, that's what got them both hurt. No rules, no talk, only wild attraction and polar moods.

What of now? What does he want now? It's hard to say for sure because all the things he truly desires would involve rewriting the past. ]

If we're going to keep doing this, you mean? Then I want rules, yeah. I want to know what you're thinking, all of it. No more running.